My head in the sand…that is how I deal with difficult issues. Some people call it denial. Others call it avoidance. I just call it “being Malisa”. Like Scarlett O’Hara said, “I can‘t think about that right now. If I do, I‘ll go crazy. I’ll think about that tomorrow.”
Well, guess what? Tomorrow is here. It is time for me to wake up…snap out of it…get a grip…face the music…or, more simply put, put my “big girl panties on and deal with it.”
Life has been a tumultuous whirlwind the last couple of years. It all began about this time of year two years ago. My mother was diagnosed with multiple myeloma, an incurable bone cancer which resulted in Lurch and I making a sudden decision to retire a few years early so that we could be available to help my mother when needed. After staying with my mother for several months, we returned home in order for Lurch to get a knee replacement, but that never happened due to the discovery of major heart blockage which resulted in emergency heart bypass surgery. No, it didn’t end there. Since his bypass, Lurch has had two toe surgeries, back surgery, heart failure, kidney damage, an unsuccessful recovery and finally a pace maker. Whew!
What did I do during the last two years? I cried. I acted. Acted strong. Acted brave. Acted confident. I acted. I prayed. I did whatever I had to do to survive. And I did what I do best…avoided. Stuck my head in the sand, pulled the covers over my head and kept my mind busy with anything which helped me avoid real life.
I don’t know what happened, but I woke up this week with the urgency to throw back the covers, shut down the computer and get to work on rebuilding our lives. So while I haven’t been present on the blogosphere, I have been very present here at home…present and alert and working on my house, my yard and my life. Until I get caught up with neglected duties, I won’t be posting my normal caption contests and never-ending stories. I will post as time allows and might even post some photos of my projects and progress and I will try to get around to reading your posts and leaving comments as often as I can.
Did I mention that Lurch is doing very well and is feeling so much better? It’s true! Maybe I will put him to work in the yard!
So please excuse my lack of posts and hang in there with me while I try to avoid avoidance.