Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Her Visit

When I woke up Thursday morning, she was there. I never know when she is coming, but I definitely know when she is there.

Her spirit is like a light weight on my shoulders. I always think of it as an antique, fox shoulder wrap. Despite its beauty, it is not always pleasant to wear.

We were best friends for thirty years. The brain cancer won the battle eight years ago. I wasn’t there for the end. She kept me from it. Protected me. Things were left unsaid.

She doesn’t visit often. Once or twice a year. Some years, she doesn’t visit at all. Her visits are different than those of others. Her weight on my shoulders is heavier.

One day, maybe I will understand.

10 comments:

sissie said...

Hi Malisa
When the day comes that you finally understand will you explain it to me. I know your pain when you say so many things left unsaid, so many things left unexplained.

hugs
Sissie

My Grama's Soul said...

Memories are a beautiful thing......sometimes sad, sometime joyous....but a necessity of life I'm afraid.

Your friend knows you loved her right up till the end.

Gentle hugs,

Jo

trash talk said...

Mal, just pull that fox stole a little tighter around you. Maybe things were unsaid, but I believe you knew and she knew without ever having to utter a sound.
Debbie

Sue said...

Thinking of you this morning girlfriend and Deb said it all, "just pull that fox stole a little tighter around you"!!

Take care, Sue

red.neck chic said...

Well my dear Malisa - I'm with Deb - pull the fur a little closer and revel in it - and know she's watching over you.

xoxoxoxo
robelyn

MikeWJ at Too Many Mornings said...

Oh my, that's terribly sad and wonderfully beautiful, Malisa. I hope that understanding comes to you someday soon.

Yaya Chique said...

My heart aches for you my friend...very powerful post! Call me...let's do lunch and talk about our "new paths"! XO...deb

lulu redstar said...

Sweetie Pie. I think the fact YOU CAN FEEL her presence is soooo wonderful and comforting. And bittersweet. Sending out one powerful neck hug and big kiss (no tongues, ok?).
My guess is her protecting you was/is/will always be the truest form of grace&love one friend can bestow on another...ox

peggy gatto said...

She is just hugging you tighter!!

Cyn said...

Sometimes I think they visit when WE need them. That has been how it is with my Grandma. Seems when I need her most :0) HUGS!